Formula be gone!! Now sleeping issues!!

Yesterday was the first day back on breastmilk!!! Im so happy to be able to give my little one the best i can give her. It was a little difficult because switching her from formula back to breastmilk the consistency is very different but she got the hang of it. The diet im on isnt as bad as i thought it would be. Only bummer is going out to eat is impossible! But all in all it is definitely worth it!

Now she is having a hard time sleeping with out laying on mommy and daddy. For the past few weeks she has had a tummy ache so i made the mistake on letting her sleep on me. Now she wont sleep in her swing, crib or on her back. WHAT TO DO? Ive been trying everything under the sun. If anybody has advice i would appreciate it. I feel bad i put her in a bad habit. I was always the one saying oh my child wont sleep with me. But it happened and i need to fix it quick before it really gets out of hand.

Milk and Soy Allergy!

This is something i really didn't expect. When you think u are giving your child the best by breastfeeding then this pops up. So Bryn was starting to become really fussy and acting like she was in pain while she ate. I had her 1 month check up and described it to the dr. He suggest that it was just acid reflux so he put her on zantac. He also gave me some warning signs to look out for. So i started her on zantac and really didn't see a change but started to notice her poop was changing into a very snotty consistency also she was getting a rash on her face that was spreading to her ear and chest. I called the drs office Monday night and they told me to drop off a diaper Tuesday. I did when Robert got home and the dr tested the diaper and it was positive for milk and soy allergy. I was so upset! All the hard work and tears i went through and my milk was not the right thing for her. The dr told me I had to put her on formula for a week. He also told me that he would like if i went on a soy and diary free diet. He told that it wouldn't be easy and it would take a lot on dedication. But once I saw the price of the formula I told myself that it was worth it for my little girl. I just want what is best for her and i know in my heart that this is it. My loving husband told me that he would do it too. He is the best support I have and i couldn't do with out him. My journey begins Wish Me Luck because our family will need it!

Photo Shoot!

Wow this shoot was so much fun! She was a joy but she did get angry through some of the pics... This is the same photographer that did our wedding and maternity pics. He did such a great job with her. She is a natural!







This is one of my favorite pics! Rob was just trying to calm her down and Kurt just snapped the picture! I love it!!!! O yeah the one in the header is her favorite face she is so funny!

My beautiful Bryn!!

It was so funny at the end of the video she just starting smiling she is so funny!!

Trip to the mall!

I can play with my friends!

It was so cool to watch her noticing her little lamb animals above her!!!

Love Her!!!

Three Weeks Old!!!

Wow three weeks old already! I would say the first two weeks were very hard. But I have settled in our routine and things are going much better. I'm still pumping and bottle feeding. That has been going very well. I'm pumping every 5 to six hours and getting 6 oz. She is eating between 18 and 24 oz a day and I'm still able to store a little too!!! But I just realized she doesn't like turkey dogs with turkey chili and mexican food. I should of known about mexican food she didn't like when I was pregnant either. Back to really watching what I eat and hopefully not upsetting her little belly. She is sleeping very well unless I eat those things I mentioned before. I'm just happy things have settled down and the family is doing very well. I'm starting to workout and only have 9 lbs to lose. The weight melted off. I gained 35 lbs during pregnancy. Thought it was going to be harder but with eating fairly well and breastfeeding it came right off. So all and all she is wonderful and daddy is great!!!

Looking at Mommy!!

Deep Sleep!!

Bryn and Daddy!!!

Daddy loves her in her hoody!!!

After Bath Hair!

So Hard!

No one ever can prepare u for having a newborn in your life. I wish breastfeeding came easy for me as I know it has for some of my friends. The first week home was such a challenge. Bryn was only latching on to one breast and then I was pumping on the other. I felt like I wasnt bonding with my daughter like I feel I was supposed too. Then came on the crying all the time because I felt I was failing her and the overwhelming guilt. Like I wasnt giving her my all. So I decided to only pump and bottle feed. It is still time consuming and a lot of work, but it makes me feel like she is getting satisfied with every feeding and she is not fighting to latch on to me. So I'm storing as much as I can and not giving up. In this journey so far I told myself I wasnt going to lose who I was in the process but with this experience so far I felt like I have. I'm not the same person to my husband or even to other people. I have to put my foot down and say enough is enough when it is time. I just want the best for my daughter. I have to tell myself that losing me in the process is not the best for Bryn.