4 and a half months!

Bath Time!!!

SHE DID IT!!!

I finally got it on tape! She is doing it all the time now! She doesn't really like bellytime but we do it everyday... She is so strong!!!

Done!

Well I gave it one more shot and thought it was going great but this past Sunday little miss Bryn had blood in her stool again. I called the dr and he told me to put her back on formula again for another week and then try again. My poor baby girl is back in pain and I just cant keep going back and forth. So I decided to put her back on formula (liquid gold) and just keep her on it. She is starting to feel better and I feel really good about my decision. I feel I tried my best and gave it my all. But I cant help feeling really sad about it. I so much wanted to give her breast milk but it just didn't work out.

She is seven weeks old and she is growing like a flower. Yesterday I had her on her belly and she rolled over. I was taping it but I got so excited I dropped my phone. I never thought that her rolling over could be such a exciting time for me. Then today I put her in her bumbo seat and she was holding her head up like a champ! She is so strong just like her mommy! This Sunday is Mothers day and im so excited to spend the day with my mom and my precious daughter!

Formula be gone!! Now sleeping issues!!

Yesterday was the first day back on breastmilk!!! Im so happy to be able to give my little one the best i can give her. It was a little difficult because switching her from formula back to breastmilk the consistency is very different but she got the hang of it. The diet im on isnt as bad as i thought it would be. Only bummer is going out to eat is impossible! But all in all it is definitely worth it!

Now she is having a hard time sleeping with out laying on mommy and daddy. For the past few weeks she has had a tummy ache so i made the mistake on letting her sleep on me. Now she wont sleep in her swing, crib or on her back. WHAT TO DO? Ive been trying everything under the sun. If anybody has advice i would appreciate it. I feel bad i put her in a bad habit. I was always the one saying oh my child wont sleep with me. But it happened and i need to fix it quick before it really gets out of hand.

Milk and Soy Allergy!

This is something i really didn't expect. When you think u are giving your child the best by breastfeeding then this pops up. So Bryn was starting to become really fussy and acting like she was in pain while she ate. I had her 1 month check up and described it to the dr. He suggest that it was just acid reflux so he put her on zantac. He also gave me some warning signs to look out for. So i started her on zantac and really didn't see a change but started to notice her poop was changing into a very snotty consistency also she was getting a rash on her face that was spreading to her ear and chest. I called the drs office Monday night and they told me to drop off a diaper Tuesday. I did when Robert got home and the dr tested the diaper and it was positive for milk and soy allergy. I was so upset! All the hard work and tears i went through and my milk was not the right thing for her. The dr told me I had to put her on formula for a week. He also told me that he would like if i went on a soy and diary free diet. He told that it wouldn't be easy and it would take a lot on dedication. But once I saw the price of the formula I told myself that it was worth it for my little girl. I just want what is best for her and i know in my heart that this is it. My loving husband told me that he would do it too. He is the best support I have and i couldn't do with out him. My journey begins Wish Me Luck because our family will need it!

Photo Shoot!

Wow this shoot was so much fun! She was a joy but she did get angry through some of the pics... This is the same photographer that did our wedding and maternity pics. He did such a great job with her. She is a natural!







This is one of my favorite pics! Rob was just trying to calm her down and Kurt just snapped the picture! I love it!!!! O yeah the one in the header is her favorite face she is so funny!

My beautiful Bryn!!

It was so funny at the end of the video she just starting smiling she is so funny!!

Trip to the mall!

I can play with my friends!

It was so cool to watch her noticing her little lamb animals above her!!!

Love Her!!!

Three Weeks Old!!!

Wow three weeks old already! I would say the first two weeks were very hard. But I have settled in our routine and things are going much better. I'm still pumping and bottle feeding. That has been going very well. I'm pumping every 5 to six hours and getting 6 oz. She is eating between 18 and 24 oz a day and I'm still able to store a little too!!! But I just realized she doesn't like turkey dogs with turkey chili and mexican food. I should of known about mexican food she didn't like when I was pregnant either. Back to really watching what I eat and hopefully not upsetting her little belly. She is sleeping very well unless I eat those things I mentioned before. I'm just happy things have settled down and the family is doing very well. I'm starting to workout and only have 9 lbs to lose. The weight melted off. I gained 35 lbs during pregnancy. Thought it was going to be harder but with eating fairly well and breastfeeding it came right off. So all and all she is wonderful and daddy is great!!!

Looking at Mommy!!

Deep Sleep!!

Bryn and Daddy!!!

Daddy loves her in her hoody!!!

After Bath Hair!

So Hard!

No one ever can prepare u for having a newborn in your life. I wish breastfeeding came easy for me as I know it has for some of my friends. The first week home was such a challenge. Bryn was only latching on to one breast and then I was pumping on the other. I felt like I wasnt bonding with my daughter like I feel I was supposed too. Then came on the crying all the time because I felt I was failing her and the overwhelming guilt. Like I wasnt giving her my all. So I decided to only pump and bottle feed. It is still time consuming and a lot of work, but it makes me feel like she is getting satisfied with every feeding and she is not fighting to latch on to me. So I'm storing as much as I can and not giving up. In this journey so far I told myself I wasnt going to lose who I was in the process but with this experience so far I felt like I have. I'm not the same person to my husband or even to other people. I have to put my foot down and say enough is enough when it is time. I just want the best for my daughter. I have to tell myself that losing me in the process is not the best for Bryn.

It has taking me so long to update this blog Robs and I anti virus ran out and since I was on strict bed rest we just now got one so lets began.

At 35 weeks I got put on bed rest because of elevated blood pressure also my mom had toxemia when she had my brother and I so this is hereditary. So the longest 5 weeks of my life began. I'm off work and not doing anything. The worst thing for me because Rob was laid off at this time and I only wanted to take off 6 or so weeks off work. But if you had children you know that things change when your pregnant even your birth plan. So I was home making the most of it with my loving husband. We started finishing the nursery and making headbands and bows. My husband is the most creative man I ever met. He will be doing the projects for sure when it comes down to school. HINT HINT!!

37 weeks I decided to do maternity pics I was on the fence with them because I saw some samples and they were kinda scary. Like naked with high heels and boobs out and all kinds of naked that u can think of. But our good friend Kurt Nelison the photographer that did our wedding said we will be able to work with whatever u want and it ended up to be the best thing I did. We have great pics for the nursery and for the house. A great memory of my gorgeous daughter in my belly!

38 weeks I have a Dr's appt and it was time for her to check my cervix and to check the position of baby Bryn. She checked me and was concerned because it was extremely hard for what appeared to be the head. So she sent me over to get an ultra sound right away. Wouldn't you know it baby Bryn was breech! So the Dr said they didn't want to try to turn her because there wasn't enough fluid for her to turn. My Dr said go on complete bed rest. She told me to go home rest and to eat and in a week we will schedule a c section. Also the baby and I will be monitored every other day. OMG a week! Wow how everything is now so surreal. I went home and told Rob this is our last Friday together then everyday after that was our last day for us to be by ourselves.

The 19th of March!!! We arrived at the hospital at 11 in the morning and was scheduled for surgery at 1. I was extremely calm up to point where I was on the table strapped down with the spinal delivered and the Rob walks in the room and I lost it. Crying like it was my job. So they started the surgery and in 10 minutes they asked Robert if he wanted to see them deliver our baby he stood up and saw the best miracle happen. It was Baby Bryn Elisabeth De Armond screaming and it was the best sound ever. Dr Smale told me I had a heart shaped uterus so where the heart would come down was blocking Bryn from turning. But it was completely normal but very unique. So Rob was with Bryn and I was getting sewed up and felt pretty lite headed and my shoulders hurt really bad. This felt like it was the longest part of everything. But they came over and told me that she was 6lbs 8 oz and 19 inches long and then I lost it again. She was so beautiful!

The start of breastfeeding was a breeze in the hospital and the pain was tolerable. But I guess I wasn't prepared for the time at home. Cluster feeding and not latching on and melt downs. Feeling like I'm not giving enough so emotional. But this is all normal people keep telling me. She had her first Dr's appt she left the hospital at 5lbs 15 oz and 7 days later weighing 6lbs 5 oz. Which is awesome! That means she is getting enough milk and that I was doing my job! Lots of poopy diapers that look like yellow runny mustard and the amazing thing is that they don't stink. Shes not gassy and she doesn't spit up. So this makes me just want to breastfeed even more. Even though this is the hardest thing I ever done. Im going to give it my all!
She is growing and changing everyday. She really likes to pee and poop when dad is in the middle of changing her! HEHE!!!

30 and 32 weeks!!!!

Wow I cant believe i only have 8 weeks left!! A lot of changes getting a little harder to sleep. I have been having hip pain on both sides. Also she is still transverse.

I had my baby shower and it was a little stressful because we sent out invites 5 weeks ago asking people to call if they couldnt come because we had a caterer. So we had around 45 people show so not to bad. Spent a little extra money on people not letting us know they were coming. Oh well all in all it was a lot of fun!

Rob and I are nesting for sure! We washed all the clothes and opened all the stuff took some stuff back and have some odds and ends to get before the big day!! We have her name and some other things for the walls in her nursery but we have most of the nursery finished! So excited for the big day!!

I have no stretch marks, hemorrhoids, not constipated, and im not waddling!!! WOOHOOO!!!

28 weeks!

Well its my 12 week countdown! Had my 28 week appt and heard some news about what Bryn has been doing... She is laying sideways in my belly head on the right and butt on the left! So that puts me at risk of having a c section if she doesnt move in weeks to come. Also Dr told me that i have a hernia... i have had some problem finishing meals and not feeling well after i finish a complete meal. But i will be fine i just have to keep my calorie intake going and as long as im gaining weight i will be fine. Back to c section business im kinda disappointed because i was so hoping to have a natural birth. I still can if she moves back into the right position, i will just have to talk to her and let her know where she should be when time comes. Rob and i are also taking child birthing classes and they are so helpful and we are very excited to learn as much as we can!